Goodbye Yesterday

Last night was a very interesting night for RED and I;.. RED is what I will be calling my boyfriend from now on. He had come to visit me after his shift at the card store. I had told him about this blog a couple days back, but he hadn't seen it yet, so of course I had shown it to him. I had remembered that there was also my old blog that could be seen and that I had things about past experiences with past persons in my past in an old blog. He had wanted to see some of them, of course I was selective and showed him ones that were going to be of interest. He had shown much interest even in things that weren't even relevant anymore... Unfortunately I did not show him entries I had thought were going to make him feel the least bit anxious. I had told him I was thinking of deleting the blog, because I've made a new one in mark of our new chapter. He had looked me into the eye and commented on me not deleting the blog, as if I wasn't ready to give it up. He said, "do it when you're ready." I was intrigued by his patience, trust and the intensity in how he said it. Here I am the next day,... ex-blog is now deleted. I am ready, I am giving this my all :)

I love you RED.